I am numb.
Only the future knows what’s to come.
Side Note: The test didn’t happen yesterday. With the requisition form in hand, I did go to the lab only to find out that they don’t do the gene testing on Fridays only Mondays, Tuesdays and my brain stopped listening after that. I was annoyed in the moment. I am human after all. I get annoyed, mad and I have dislike and hatred in my heart sometimes but I don’t hang on to these feelings because your body has a reaction to these emotions. I called my stepmom and told her what happened and she reassured me again that this test is preventative. It doesn’t mean that I will get cancer and pass away. Medicine has come a long way since the early 90’s. I am in Canada where there is a focus on this type of research. I am going on Monday to get the testing done. I have to wait 8 weeks for the results. To distract myself, I am going to create. I will be putting my words on things and selling them. I can’t write a story right now because I don’t have the focus but I can write shorter things so that is what I’m going to do.
SONYA A WATSON 