Feeling Feelings 37

BY A NOT SO FAMOUS AUTHOR

The past is a reflection

Void of emotion. 

Like a stranger,

I watch. 

I examine.

What?

Why?

How?

Who was I?

A picture of its foul beginnings.

A word synonymous with the darkest of thoughts. 

A word that sits on the tip of my tongue but I dare not utter. 

For the sound gives rise to fear. 

Oh the soul crushing fear. 

It subdues my heart. 

Numbs my mind

And narrows my  field of view.